We all have them, although, we don’t always recognize it. We are making choices from the time we get up till the time we lay our heads down. The list is endless.

It took me a few years to realize that I was giving myself a gift. The gift of learning how to live a life that didn’t need to be numbed by alcohol.

It was wonderful in the very beginning, but quickly the red flags started waving in the wind. I ignored them; hated them; justified my way around them.

I was recently diagnosed with ADHD at age 51. I was able to recognize it in others, but never myself. I was that girl who had “talks too much” on her report cards, every. damn. year.

It’s very common to swap once addiction for another. I can still do it with other things in my life... shopping, social media scrolling, Netflix and eating can be some big ones for me.

Somewhere within our family systems, culture and belief systems, we have learned that we “should” be able to handle this, “never” tell people your problems, or you are “weak” if you can’t figure this out on your own.

I let people’s opinions of me dictate my worth. I took those opinions and treated them as if they were the “truth”. Just because someone said something about me, didn’t mean it was true!